New Year’s Resolutions: The concept of perfectionism
Sunday, December 27, 2015
For Christmas, Lucy and I received almost matching notebooks
from her sister. As a stationery enthusiast (and I have no regrets as to how
nerdy that sounds) this gift was adorable and well anticipated. It has given me
an excuse to start writing a diary and do it properly for once, as well as
share something special with my girlfriend. It’s been wonderful to write and
share my thoughts and feelings with Luce, as well as get an insight into her
inner ramblings as well. Despite this, it has also opened my eyes to a lot of
negative traits I have and so has sparked a new reel of resolutions I will
happily welcome in the new year.
Perfectionism is a trait that hasn't ever been a stranger to
me. My need for order and good quality has often come in vicious waves – one
second I can happily lie in my own dirt, the next I feel nothing by self-hatred
for my spectacularly average work. Writing in my diary has brought to light
just how self-critical I can be, especially as I am consciously editing my own
thoughts before I write them down as to not offend myself when rereading them
later. Most of my thoughts come back to the fact that things I create, do or
think are not up to my high standard of perfection.
Of course, striving for perfection can be a fantastic thing.
It gives the ‘kick up the ass’ people need to work harder and aim for better. I’ve
kidded myself into believing this is the effect it has had on me, despite the
fact that instead of working harder, I’m spending more time being critical of
my own work and never really being satisfied. This is a vice that I quickly have
to eradicate before it becomes a bigger problem, which brings me to my other
New Year’s resolutions
- Eliminate my high standards and learn to settle for good progress and achievable goals
- Cultivate some motivation to actually stick to a fitness regime as to help resolution one
- Learn to appreciate the little things more, as opposed to being obsessed with the future and the bigger picture
I think with the mixture of deep and stereotypical
resolutions I should be able to find some balance and balance my erratic
emotions and perfectionism into something positive and constructive.
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